Monochromatic Dream

Nonchalant

2012-01-10T00:26:00.000-08:00

Nearly a year have passed since I've last written on this blog. It seems almost painfully neglected by this nonchalant author. But I guess pain is like a sedative to all of those feverish emotions which prompts one to put pen to paper, in this case- finger to keyboard. Reflecting pensively and with all the vigour of a concentrated mind, 2011 was tumultuous. It was year that gave me a peek into the possible reason that may jolly well contribute to the man's demise. It was a year where I saw moral degradation at its best. Paradoxically , it was also a year which rewarded me with the utmost benevolence the human character can afford. 2011 was an inextricably messed up year. The year which made me despise English. A year of volatile change. Nevertheless I go into the brave new world with renewed hope and fortitude. Like the dumb prophet who has never learnt his lesson, I continue to soldier on to this enigmatic future hopeful that my faith would remain iron strong towards the various obstacles that may lay ahead. My writing is seriously devoided of poetic spirit. Troubling indeed...

the circle of life

2011-04-12T01:59:00.001-07:00

...and thus is another day in life where everything is so cyclical

you fail... you succeed ...to only fail again ....however the most improtant thing is the knowledge that one day you will succeed yet again :)

Disappointment

2010-11-24T03:06:00.000-08:00

"Hope is what is always left in the Pandora's Box"......

Disppointment

Dejection

Desperation

Depression

Do emotions play a role in the foly of human ways..?

Do life really have to be so empty sometimes

Do we really have to hurt each other?

Do things really go back to normal?

the only thing wecan do is hope...

misunderstood

2010-09-10T16:37:00.000-07:00

Misunderstood
..that is all i can say

if there was a god of misunderstandings I would kill him already...

to that certain person out there I really dont know what you were thinking so to set it straight I shall state these:

1) she is not my best friend ...she is the best friend I have HERE in SYDNEY...and by the way I see her to be more like a mummy who tutors me like hell in my maths

2) Stuck up? please I was BANNED from MSN because my real mummy wants me to concentrate on my work...however whenever I am on (snuck on ok??) you are not on and the last message you posted I was already sleeping =__= (never start sleeping later than 8 now! exam period need sleep!)'

3) I never contacted you because you sounded so busy too! I wanted to leave you to study so I can get a msn message at the end of the year saying "GIRL MY N LEVELS IS GREAT SIA I AM SO HAPPY"
I guess I 'misunderstood' that part of your lfe....

4) If you think I am behaving stuck up to Nazi that is because he keeps singing oprea in french and chatting non stop during the classes (i.e History) WHEN I NEED TO LISTEN THE MOST BECAUSE I DONT GET IT!!! (Australian history is boring and hard ja!)

5) I wouldnt bother defending you from all the 'suggestive' things that the "Germ" said! what did it get me?? In the end I was made to look like a gossiping biatch who likes the spread 'false' (yeah right!) rumours around! WHY? because I care for my friends reputation and pride as a girl... even more than my own...Even if the whole world says that she did it with her boyfriend I WOULD BE THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL STILL BELIEVE THE WORDS SHE ONCE SAID TO ME! QUOTE:
" Girl I have my pride as a woman so I wont be that easy one believe me!"

...I did...I really did....and I still do...

5) If you think I dont care about you than I shall tell you this ..you just lost a good friend: WHY? well see the below

1. If I really didnt care about you than I wouldn't have bothered typing this message here and set out all the things I think you might've misunderstood. WHY? because I still care for you as a friend

2. I wouldn't be sitting here crying after I read your message.. WHY? Because I really could not forget you as one of my best friends OF ALL TIME...I would never forget how you have treated me so nicely in first toa payoh and never would i forget the kindness in which you have shown me ...woman I thought I have told you this once before " I would NEVER forget those who have been kind to me I will always try and repay them twice back "...I guess you also forgotten about that part of me....

3. If I really didnt care about you I wouldn't have insisted mummy and daddy to buy the plane tickets to singapore ..do you have any idea how many times I was scolded because of that? If you think I was going back to singapore because I JUST ONLY wanted to buy copics than you are DEAD wrong...
The main reason is because I really do miss the times I hung out with you ...going to bras basah, eating waraku ect.... and here is me, the fool, planning in suprising you by popping up in school. I could say that you are the main reason why I still miss Singapore...
oh goodbye that reason...
********

woman you have disappointed me .....you broke my heart once again..you really did

only one word of advice: think think and THINK! you really do put "bros before hoes" when people acuse you of stuff that did not sound like you I clarified it with you why? I thought that you were my friend...ever since then i started to distance myself from those people because I didn't want them to get in the way of our friendship instead you turned your back on me and say that I am being stuck up...so be it

For your info I waited for you to go online to show you these songs:

1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rR5kSy4kkE&feature=related - Go the Distance
the first thing I thought of to tell about my successful entry to the school i wanted was YOU i thought you for one would be happy for me.... guess i was wrong you think ive change? why so have YOU

2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBZdu-LwAtY - TRAX - oh my goddess
loved the chorus and i thought that the cheery tone might help cheer you up because you sounded so stressed and sad lately

sorry for the lack of colour because my heart feels black with despair
.......so you know what? "so, yeah, bye.."

Crash and Burn

2010-08-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

Crashed and burned....

however the fire that burn is not that bear an ominous presence....NO

This is...

the flame of passion
the flame of vigour
the flame of hope
the flame of revenge....

A flame that marks the beginning and not the end

Friends

2010-08-12T02:19:00.000-07:00

Friends....

loving the new but never forgeting the old <3

FORT STREET

2010-08-09T00:01:00.001-07:00

OMG FORT STREET FORT STREET FORT STREET ;A;

waiting for results is even harder than waiting for the exam to come ><

2010-07-26T02:47:00.001-07:00

Problems:

when one is faced with one and can't think of an answer ..just leave it
return to it and re-think again...still no answer?

FORGET IT :]

hypocrites

2010-07-21T00:53:00.001-07:00

Death to hyopcrites <3

Glass mask

2010-07-20T02:17:00.000-07:00

To know only what is on the surface
To see only what is before me
is it me who is so stupid to believe?
or you who is too smart in concealing what laid beneath?

what secrets do you hide
what lies in your stride
what happened to the old days,
when we stood side by side

This glass mask is all I see before me
It hides it contents
but shows an opaque picture
of one so mysterious like thee.

This circle of deceit,
never ending
as doubts come and go
like the fluctuating currents of the sea.

SEBAS-CHAN

2010-07-19T02:01:00.001-07:00

SEBAS - CHAN! >////<

new art

2010-07-13T17:59:00.001-07:00

gonna copy mu chan .. : new art up on Da <3 Ciel phantomive - fade to black

holidays

2010-07-08T02:00:00.001-07:00

Holidays

always the period of the year that pasts the fastest

...shit

ore sama no resolve

2010-06-12T05:34:00.000-07:00

I've finally made my own RESOLVE

[I will need not your help, but my own ability to pull myself through and KICK YOUR ASS]

.... so says the me that YOU have stepped on so many times until I am sick of it

YES... when you push a tiger to the wall it will fight back!!

....even if it means biting the hand that fed it

Disappointment

2010-05-26T03:26:00.001-07:00

Disappointment.....

[a simple word with a strong meaing..]

concentration

2010-05-09T22:50:00.001-07:00

Concenttration is the bane of studying...

IT IS JUST SO HARD TO CONCENTRATE ><

desire

2010-05-07T00:59:00.000-07:00

DESIRE

Good vs Evil

2010-05-06T02:35:00.000-07:00

["There's no Good nor Evil it's just Human Minds which creates it"]

- William Shakespeare

stress~

2010-05-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

Stress

[a big word with a small way to counter it]

a stressful day at work or school might cause headaches of drastic sizes but when it boils down to it, there is a simple way to counter it.

now that is to NOT procrastinate and to be on task.
no regrets means no stress and it can all be cured with just a dose of happiness :D

so...

[the best way to stop stress is to de-stress]

food for the soul

2010-05-03T04:25:00.000-07:00

If happiness is the sweet food for the soul...

then sadness is nature's bitter medicine which would enhance us to better taste the rare sweetness to come

They would be the apples on the trees that aline the beautiful country road called life. Like apples with differing tastes and colours, would they differ the path of men too. Exactly like the fruit of good and evil,

[the three fruits of the same tree will have the same purpose......]

copy?

2010-05-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

Short post:

Vexation

would be the word to describe my current mood after just realising how much (I mean 100%) my favourite original charcter reassembled another's!!!

and by this I meant a well recognised characrer by the artist tony taka!!!!

yes... I shall go back to do my maths now T__T

2010-05-02T04:53:00.000-07:00

"Keep moving forwards!"

Mountains are there to be conquered
Hurdles are there waiting for someone to jump over

BUT

has anyone ever thought about what do you do after you conquered everything?

2010-04-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

WHY????

Why do I always have my headphones on?
- because I don't want to hear your insults and comments

Why do I always like to sleep?
- because I prefer to be in my dreams than to wake up to harsh reality

Pensive as I am lately I've been wondering how I ended up in this pittiful state. Why am I always the steeping stone? why so I always get used? Why is it that this cruel world hate me more by the day?

the answer?

Because I am me
so take advantage of my kindness, my forgiveness, my utter ignorance, because someday I will be like Alice and live happily in my own carefree wonderland. I will breath in the bliss filled air and exhale my sorrows and sinful thoughts. It won't be like this polluted world which is only filled will an atmosphere of hate and sorrow.

that place I shall await...
I will await to go to

HEAVEN

2010-04-30T03:14:00.000-07:00

"WHAT?! you didn't have any friends?"
"Well don't worry you've got us now"

words that would burgeon the warmth of happiness that had laid in slumber deep inside my heart
all I can say is .....

THANK YOU

thank you my true friends ><

insanely weird world

2010-04-29T04:13:00.000-07:00

the tears are not where they are supposed to be

the feelings do not belong to whom it should belong to

life is not what it appears to be

oh!how insanely weird this world has become....

melancholy

2010-04-28T01:18:00.001-07:00

"A great melancholy"

- guess this phrase says it all...

Is this really for me?

2010-04-24T02:56:00.000-07:00

The human race is an enquiring kind, we ask questions everyday..

However now I ask myself, the big question ... did I make the correct choice?

Today as I scanned through the didactic contents of the medicine course descriptor, I realised that medicine might not be the thing for me. The course requirements and me are just two polar opposites. However, is it my stubbornness that keeps me heading down this no through road? Or is it my gut feeling telling me that I am just thinking too much in the wrong way? Sometimes in life having foresight is good but sometimes it could make people give up without trying.

hence,
no matter how bad my English standard is today
no matter how slow I am at mental arithmetic today
no matter how easily I give up today
no matter how much I fall behind at school today
no matter how depressed and lazy I am ....

I still have tomorrow, and tomorrow be it , that I will have the chance to succeed!

2010-04-23T01:18:00.001-07:00

I guess in the end I am just a hopeless human being who can't do anything correct.....

Short lived happiness

2010-04-23T01:02:00.000-07:00

The pain of an aching heart is a pain that none can rival with.

But a stalemate with life is the one that keeps the negativity going

Childhood~

2010-04-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

Times as a child are the best
people would comfort you, be more patient with you, they will actually feel sympathatic for you when you

are in pain. they wont tell you "get over it " and shrug you off. Those were times where there is mainly love and not much hate. People only probably treat you so nicely just to influence you to be something they want you to become. Probably just like the way the devil tempts people.
..... no wonder men fall to "temptation" so easily..

Because I finally understand........

Storys always comes with complications

2010-02-19T02:04:00.000-08:00

A new beginning
A new start
A new PROBLEM..?

Australia, a bright new hope, a bright new chapter in a mundane thing called my life. However not all fairytales are bright, sparkly and happy. Little did I know that new beginnings would mean new trouble.

Little did I know that most of the trouble would not lie at school but at home. A switch? probably.
Homework, a speck of dirt in childhood. However, year ten would magnify it to be a puddle which you can drown in. Maths, the bloody thing. Its making me hate more than love at the moment. Graphing the word phobia deep into my mind. Syllabus differences, catching up, blah! All just spells trouble to me.

Parents being more paranoid at the moment? yes maybe. Sometimes I would just wish and wish that they would just understand what I am going through. Maybe I am just selfish ,but hey! humans are selfish in nature.
I wish that they could understand just how tired I am. I wish that they could just show some care and concern. Weekends are my only rest days and they grab me to go house hunting. I just want to recuperate at home. Great I can't even spell a word correctly!

I am not a rope which school and parents just play tug of war with.

Did I really make the right chioce..?

image copyrighted to perspective owner..

2009-11-27T05:41:00.000-08:00

there

this is the hair colour

the other hair ... simmilar ^^

2009-11-06T05:32:00.000-08:00

WHITE . . . .

the reason why they are so easily stained is that they are rare and this makes people want to contaminate it evenmore. . .

2009-10-28T03:30:00.000-07:00

Today I went to learn japanese
....
....
The class only had two 9 year old girls and I felt as though I was from an entirely different universe. Though ironically we were breathing the smae air and on the same planet. However from those two girls, I realised that I have forgetten how to smile and that is how to smile truely with all the innocence and youth, a smile throughly destroyed by this competitive world we experience today.

Those who gloat at your demise are now common even in secondary schools. The world really has changed, had broke.

"Kowerete Iku Sekai" ...The breaking world

2009-10-26T05:48:00.000-07:00

EXAMS ARE OVER
*THROWS CONFETTI*

someone stole my heart~

2009-10-16T02:14:00.001-07:00

2009-10-15T22:43:00.001-07:00

Life is unfair...
however what awaits you in heaven is worth it all. . . .

****
Having fever just when I was about to take the exam I was waiting for T^T
stuffed up maths and crap. . . . T^T

but too late to regret not heeding the doctor's advice. . .
Guess humans were risk-takers in nature when they chose intelligence over physical strength. . .

2009-10-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

"you may lose all the battles but win the war"
------- Winston Churchill

Hax's BDAY!

2009-10-02T06:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Hax chan <3

Today for me was both good and bad. @W@
end-of-year s creeping closer and closer, it almost seems like those japanese ghosts with them out grown bangs.
Also . . . once someone said that it is better to lose then to win
but I think that it is better to win then to lose becasue only then would you sieve out who your true friends are. . . . Unfortunately for me most of class isn't

"Don't worry . . . their not clapping because in reality they are just jealous"
"They all seem to like me I don't know why. . ."
. . .. . ... . . .
I know why. . . . Because They hate ME. . . sad but true. . . SO I HAVE ALREADY DEALT WITH IT
to be frank every time when i look at my english teacher my heart would throb a little in pain and it will also sigh a breath of relief. I guess it is becasue she bears an uncanny reasemblance to my best friend. This brings back bitter sweet memories.

In life it is hard to look at yourself in the mirror and say thats me. Probably that is why we hate photos.. . But for those who like them, they probably don't even know what a mirror is.

I guess if everyone can look through a pokerface, there wouldn't be so much segregation in life. So often do we think that a rope is a snake. And so often do we view the world through rose-coloured glasses.

but I guess a quote from Obama says it all
"I was black to begin with"

Try and comprehend that if you can......
***** on a seperate note

Today was hax's Bday. Had her over my house and had papa cook her a meal XD (coz I can't COOK! >W<)

After that was.....
GINTAMA!!!! If you are the artists who own these pics credit goes to you ok? cause I forgot where i got these pics . . . .

OKai so see the guy above..? He is HIJIKATA and he was in a virtual game competition with the main character. He was laughed at for being randomly assigned a low HP (of only 3 !!) and when he laughed back at the guy who laughed at him for getting poisoned he accidentally KICKED on a SIGN POST AND DIED!!

me hax and miki took 10 minutes to breath properly again. . . ..

See this cute guy above..? This is KATSURA

. . . catch phrase. . ."Zura janai KATSURA DA!"

but this time he was dressed up as MARIO!!!

and the phrase became

"Zura janaii KATSUO DA!!!"

Me and hax = ( =________=);;;;; *speechless*

Miki: *busy reading Ouran*

LOVE MY TWO FAVS SO MUCH!! \( >w<)/

BE FREE~

2009-09-21T02:56:00.000-07:00

The sky at sunset, ah, glows so bright

We were tinged with passion and our hearts drew close, ah

Living off your parents (yeah)
Laughing with friends (yeah)
Time goes by and never comes back
Being in love, worrying (yeah)
Having a dream, “tears”
If only I could live my life with more strength

Spring and summer end, fall and winter arrive
Time is found within an irreversible moment
Even if the world is full of nothing but lies
I know the two of us can make it together

We’ve met but someday we’ll go our separate ways
It felt so normal, I couldn’t believe it
Flowing like clouds, ah

When the “sad rain” has dried (yeah)
I’ll start walking forward again (yeah)
You can’t stop me! Even if my feelings get hurt
Yearning and regretting (yeah)
Loving “tears”
If only I could fly farther, farther away

Somewhere beneath the city’s ashen skies
A crowd of people have forgotten the meaning
That “humanity’s fate” is to meet one another and say goodbye
Finding something and then searching for it

Why do we trouble our hearts. . .
Who wants to cry? Why does it hurt?

In those times we certainly take notice of each other
Our emotions become entangled
And forgiveness leads to healing
As we long for a bit of warmth from each other
Our days are filled with pride
Your days and mine flow towards tomorrow
Towards tomorrow! Towards tomorrow!

BE FREE, let’s leave all the sadness behind
BE FREE, tomorrow will be a fine day! I know in my heart…
BE FREE, the flowing river leaves us behind again today
BE FREE, we’ll surely be stronger tonight

Spring and summer end, fall and winter arrive
Time is found within an irreversible moment
Even if the world is full of nothing but lies
I know the two of us can make it together
BE FREE. . .

------------------------------ "Be Free" Lyrics and Music by GReeeeN

**************
I think the lyrics speak for itself
"Time is found within an irreversible moment"
“humanity’s fate” is to meet one another and say goodbye"

Byousoku 5 centimeters

2009-09-11T02:18:00.000-07:00

"Byousoku 5 centimeters"
--It means " 5 centimeters per second"
....... It is the rate at which the sakura flowers "Fall"

This is an animated film about a pair of star-crossed lovers...
From Primary school till they are adults. It is the final movie to a sequel of three. Takaki loves akari but are pulled apart through ....

Space & Time

From Wikipedia:
"The plot is set in Japan beginning from the 1990s and ending in modern day, with each segment centered on a boy named Takaki Tōno. It is important to note that the first episode takes place during a time period when cell phones are uncommon and e-mail has not yet reached the general populace."

....
.......
..........
This tells me to never use letters to communicate....... (I don want to end up like them!)
.......
"the feature film would attempt to present the real world from a different perspective. Makoto's film gives a realistic view of the struggles many face against: time, space, people, and love"

..... time is something that I definately lack!

****
However this has made me realize that you must move on in life

... Akari moved on and has found happiness
... while takaki dwelled in the past and continues to live in pain

This is the ONLY film that made me cry just by reading the summary of the whole thing! T^T

Hax.... I hope you get it .....

2009-09-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

JROCK Interviews are:

FUNNY!!!!

******** (A gazette interview!)

Describe your personality in a single word:

"Aoi: Stern to others but SUPER SUPER nice to MYSELF "
Me: That is the golden kimono shaking guy for you XD
"Kai: I fail alot"
Me: oh! hi-five XD

A thing that you are wishing for right now:
"Uruha: I ... DONT WANT TO DIE!!!"
Me: LOL!!!

Describe Ruki:

"Reita: you never know whats he thinking"
"Kai: In fact, it's because you never know what he is thinking of on the inside!" (Me:I bet he did it with his cute smile !)
"Ruki: Are you saying that I am scheming?!"
Me: what a nice way to treat your comrades

What s your first memory:

"Uruha: Often hiding under my mother's skirt"
Me: .... oh my. . . .

Best subjects at school

"Ruki: English and Japanese"
"Uruha: Art "
"Aoi: Home economics"
Me: Oh my! golden kimono shaking guy = housewife ..?
"Reita: Japanese "
"Kai: Mathematics, Current events"
Me: Oh KAI! always the odd one out XD *pinches cheeks*

Something the you DEFINATELY dont want to lose:

"Uruha: Street fighther II"
Me: *speechless*

Food you dislike:

"Reita: vegetables, mushrooms and KAI's COOKING "
Me: your nice....

The biggest mischef you've gotten into

"Reita: I've thrown rubbish underneath Ruki's bed.."
Me: I give up on you . . .

What was the worst mistake of your life:

"Uruha: my liscence photograph"
Me: *Falls off chair laughing*

Number one overseas location you would like to go?

"Aoi: SINGAPORE"
Me: COME COME!!!!!!!!

AND FINALLY THE FUNNIEST PART!!!

Me: *struggles to get back up my chair*

THE STRANGEST DREAM YOU'VE DREAMT TO DATE:

"Ruki :I was almost killed by a cat. "

"Uruha: I was shot many times in that dream. "
"Aoi: I had a dream wherein 4 corpses floated up at the Nagoya port! On top of that the corpses were laughing. "
"Reita: I was the vocalist... or rather, I sang a twin vocal with Ruki... it was fun... "

"Kai: The dream where Reita was my mother. "

*****************************************************

Been awhile since I've had a good laugh!!
"If reita uses emotions in his texting it would be forcing himself to do so"
= LOL

I wish Aoi could come to spore but I'm leaving NOOO *Grabs on to Aoi's shirt refusing to let go*
Note to hax: SEE J rock guys ARE FUNN!!!!! *fangirls*

GAZEROCK IS NOT DEAD!!!!!!!!!!

(left to right) Reita, Ruki, Kai, Aoi, Uruha = The GazettE

2009-09-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

OH YES!!!!! MY POST FUNCTION IS BACK TO NORMAL!!!!! THANKS HAX!!!!!!

Now a quick little post before tuition!!! >W<

Ah life is stressful but. . . .
I have found out that the world has meritocracy after all and that God is FAIR ^^;;
Welll. . . .

I AM GOING BACK TO AUSTRALIA XD

but for some reason I feel two minds about it. . (WOOT I remembered my english lesson XD)
I will definately miss the teachers here, they ARE the best I've ever had. Such an uplifting bunch they are. *tears in eyes*

Well, in life there are difficult decisions to make, but I think that I am making the correct one ^^
Not much humour in this post (sorry Hax!) but this post

Is to say all my thanks....
and to describe all my hate *sudden mood change*

Being called ~~a bitch~~ sweared at for no reason
Being Hated for no reason
Being spited for no reason
Being bullied for no reason
Being torn into pieces for no reason
Being backstabbed, gossiped and whatever NOT for absolutely NO reason

"SOMEDAY YOU INTORLERATERBLE BUNCH WILL GET YOUR RETRIBUTION!!"
God has eyes BEWARE!! Walls have eyes and ears too....

************
We’re looking for a meaning in life, wanting to shine

We live wishing strongly, not to lose, not to whither

For instance, even on days we tear up
Just like a normal day, the sun will rise and then set again

I thought I was left behind alone in this world
But the world will turn again, it was actually tiny

Days that ran by, tears that were shed, I was looking for a meaning to live
Everyone lives to wish for that something they’re lacking
Talk about destiny, talk about life, it all only means that
I want to be laughing on my last second,
All the answers are inside my heart

In the distance, I can dimly see my future self,
It smiled and asked, “Are you living your life so you wont regret it?”
I cried a little

I thought that the world was all happy, except for me
But the world will turn tomorrow too, soothing each and every tear

Days that ran by, the pain that built up, I was looking for a meaning to live
Everyone lives this moment wishing for a shining tomorrow
Weak and lacking in strength, I was shivering in the darkness of the night
No one is strong, but one is only oneself carrying everything.

In those eyes that know pain, the world is colored with sadness
The tears were only at first running, but soon overflowed
Unsatisfied feelings fill me now
Did I meet ‘my proud self’? Did I choose ‘myself that’s made up with lies’?
The justice is always inside the heart,
Happiness and sadness will connect to tomorrow…

When times are sad, cry until your eyes are dry
When times are happy, laugh until your stomach hurts
When times are painful, feel the wind.
And wait until the day when you can leap high

We’re looking for a meaning in life, wanting to shine
We live wishing strongly, not to lose, not to whither
Until that day when you can reach that dream ‘you’,
Until that day comes, believe in yourself.

------------Setsuna - By GReeeeN

English Homework (reflection)

2009-08-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

English Homework (Reflection)

Through this vocabulary training exercise I have noticed that a word's contextual meaning can differ from its actual dictionary meaning. Also, I have noticed how you could deprive a word's contextual meaning from the sentences around it. I have also learnt a new method of checking a word's meaning and that is to replace that word in the sentence with the meaning you have devised for it. This way if the sentence can still be read fluently after it has been replaced then the meaning is most likely correct. Hence from this exercise I have picked up new skills and hope to improve from there.

2009-07-09T03:01:00.000-07:00

Stress --- Do you want fries with that..?

Yes everyone has had their fair share of stress lately but unfortunately stress seems to have a habit to swarm to little girls who just wants a time out. The quick passing of time that is apparent for JUST this year has added a conciderable amount of weight to my straint shoulders.

It hurts (my shoulders) and i think that it is about to break ...

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Why must humans make life so hard...

Why must god make life a "survival of the fittest"

doshite .. nande...WHY?

Yes, stress is as common as a hamburger at Macdonald's.

.. I think I will like to upsize the drinks thanks....

.... I think that I should change to the daily saver's meal thanks....

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No I do not want fries with that...

I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!! and it feels as though I am going hysterical.

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Stress agrivating number one on the current hit list at stress TV is ENGLISH!

(Get the pun? Hint: MTV)

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HSC Tetiary Examinations course description:

1) English advance, Basic, Extention 1 and 2

Course description: Love and Hate it.

Advice: If you suck at inference, choose basic. Stuff the scaling!!!

2) Mathematics, Basic, Advance, extention 1 and 2, Professional (sydney University collab)

Course description: Why must they make it so complicated?

Advice: If you suck just dont choose it.

3)Senior Science (Bio, Chem, Physics)

Course description: For the Love of god why must they have a different syllabus!

Advice: You will love it sooner or later. The only thing to bet on is whteher it is sooner or later

(= w =);;

4)Art

Course description: Why must they include art history??!!!! good for nothing.... (If they are famous we will know!)

Advice: Joy comes with practice.

Literature has caused woe to become one with me. Being torn inbetween decisions is one of the hardest aspects of life. Oh so often do we choose the wrong one.

So which path should I choose to part to?

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Hax-Cel Chan collab XD

2009-06-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

This is not the Holiday homework!!....

A collaboration between Hax and me ,taken during the International water festival....

Hax and Cel
The next .. CLAMP?

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Collection : The Walk Of Life
* Photos mainly taken be Cel , Model+edit done by Hax

1) Audieu ma Cherii
Taken By: Cel
* Hax calls it Bye my Beloveds on her blog. . .

This is my favourite picture, It is my pride and joy. It inflates my ego. . . (^ 3 ^)
Me and Hax wanted to take a picture of a kid's leg. That was when i stumbled across these little shoes. ( *^*)
It Belonged to a family so I made sure that they weren't looking when I splattered the water all over it (^__^)

I have a love for gorey, bloody pictures so when you see shoes belonging to a family with "blood" splatters what would you think..?
*Innocently whistles*

Qualms:
Oh woe is me~ (T ^ T )
why must Hax put that @#$% Butterfly on top of the shoe!!!!
The shoe is the focus of the whole picture~!!!

2)Our fairytale
Taken by: Cel

*Oh joy~ please do not be like me and think that the words at the back is Vietnamese!
I means our fairytale in chinese~ (Yes it IS Chinese)
What I love about these are the splatters!
These were made by me when I was running away from a Miss Woon armed with her camera! (O A O);;;

Love the texture you put on Hax!~
Watashi wa Daisuki desu~ (^^)

3)Ex&Mal
Taken by : Hax

Excellent work Hax~..but i have no idea what the title means~ (=.=)

4)Hey Mommy....
Taken by: Cel , Model: Hax

I literally fell off my chair laughing. Poor Hax!! The effects and everything was perfect. BUT. . . It is DEATH not DEAD . . . (suddenly changes intoa comical atmosphere)
Guess you would have to redo it with a sigh~ (^__^);;;;

4) Running away
Taken by: Cel , Model Hax

The main concept for this is lost love or running away from life's mishaps.
HOWEVER .. AGAIN Hax has covered the main focus point of this picture and that is the "Blood" splatters!! (T^T)
*goes to the corner of woe*

5) Mizerable
Taken by : Hax

Sorry Hax!! i reanmed it for you (>W<) Yes and it is after Gackt's song *fangirls* i wanted to name it universe of misery because it just has this cosmos feel to it! (heck my english sucks!) But i just thought that the one word name had more of a punch!! it seems like those "blood" splatters are from your heart XD (WOOT sadness is shrouding hax's heart!) Again ...I shall reiterate that i have a fetish for blood~ (VAMPIRE ..not)

6) Audieu Juliette
Taken by : Cel , Model: Hax

Oh I am so glad that I made (FORCED) you stand on top of that podium !
This shot looks great!
I guess enduring those stares were worthed it!
However, we wont wear our PE uniform while doing so . . *gets wacked by Mdm Aini*

But the most embarrasing part was getting stared at by this 4 year old boy! He wore such an expression that made you feel bad for doing these "special" activities. . .

Thanks Hax! I love the shadow too~!
I wanted to take a straight shot but then my hand shaked and what do you know! It turned out great XD

. . . To be continued~! suzuku~! ( that should be to be continued in japanese right? *unsure*)

English Holiday Homework: Places

2009-06-10T19:02:00.000-07:00

Places

What is the place that you want to visit the most?

The place that I want to visit the most is Japan. The main reason for me wanting to visit Japan is because it is the birth place of Anime. Not only will you find Anime stores littering the streets, you will also find rare merchandises that are only available in Japan. As for me, I already have my eyes set on the art books available there. Especially the "Kuroshitsuji" one as for it is illustrated by my favourite artist. It has really detailed art and is worth the money. If you buy the art books and merchandises here, its price is most likely marked up because of the expensive shipping cost.

The thing that I look forward to the most is to see the Cosplayers at Harajuku. Cosplaying is a common thing in Japan and it is regarded to as street fashion so you would not be awkwardly stared at if you do Cosplay. You will find shops that sell Cosplay costumes and it would be a great experience to view the high quality costumes from Japan. However, the thing that I like the most are J-rock and Lolita clothing. Famous brands such as "Baby The Stars Shine Bright" and "H.Naoto" are renounced for selling these two fashions. To get my hands on some of the cutting-edge fashion available in Harajuku would be a dream come true.

I also love the Japanese cuisine especially its desserts. I would love to try one of the beautifully decorated Parfaits which are really popular in Japan. The Hot springs or "Onsens" are like an added bonus to the amount of good things available in Japan. This is another reason as to why I want to go to Japan. There are no Hot Springs here in Singapore so I must visit them if I did go to Japan.

The traditional Japanese architecture such as its temples makes Japan a great place for sightseeing. The scene is especially beautiful in Autumn when the Maple leaves change colour. Besides its architecture, Japan also has natural beauties such as Mount Fuji and the Sakura. These two are the symbols of Japan and attracts tourists.There are also theme parks such as Disney Land and Warner Brothers Movie World.

The only thing bad about Japan is that everything is so expensive. The strong Yen currency makes the situation even worse. There is also the language barrier because I am not fluent in Japanese. But despite this, I still want to visit Japan be I like its culture and all the various things that it has to offer. Japan is a place where I can find most of the things that I like and that is why it is the place that I want to visit the most.

English Holiday Homework: My Childhood

2009-06-10T06:58:00.000-07:00

My childhood

What was the most significant change during your childhood and how did it effect you?

The time I spent in Australia was the most important turning point in my life. This is because it was there, that I matured and met a friend who would completely change the course of my life for the better.

Before, when I was still in Singapore, I detested studying. I used to hate it and I still remember dreading at the end of every Sunday because I had to wake up really early the following day. I adopted a carefree attitude towards studying. I did not study hard nor did I not study at all. I had no goal to head towards to so there was no motivation to push me through the stressful Singaporean education.

That was a fact until I met my best friend Amanda Lee. I met her during my last year in Perth where we were arranged into the same class. We were already acquainted before this because her mother had worked at the Cafe which my parents had owned. However, we did not get along at first. It was only through a really close mutual friend named Ines that we started talking to each other. Amanda and Ines were the ones who introduced me to Anime. They had already known each other for a really long time and was half way through an Anime called "Inu Yasha" when I came into the picture. It was not long until I found myself addicted to Anime and this sparked my interest towards the Japanese culture. Anime is now a significant part of my life and I cannot imagine a life without that dose of Anime to de-stress at the end of the day.

Not only did Amanda significantly change my life by introducing me to Anime, she also made me like studying. It was through her and her sister Cassie that I finally found a real goal to work towards to and that is to become a doctor. Looking back at it, we were always fiercely competing against each other but yet we were still the best of friends. It was this friendly competition that had sparked my interest in studying because she would always beat me by just a little bit. Neither of us wanted to lose so we would keep on trying our best. She was also a really good project partner and I do miss working with her. We think alike and almost always ended up doing a much better job when we worked together. Now, even some of her personality has rubbed off on me. Sometimes I find myself prancing around, singing to myself like an airhead , the way she used to behave.

I would say that meeting her was the most significantly change in my childhood. This is because she was the one who influenced me the most and has shaped most of my world to make me who I am today.

English Homework: Idols

2009-06-09T19:42:00.000-07:00

English Homework: Idols

Mana-sama

I have known and loved many bands and singers. However only one stands out from the rest and that is Mana-sama. The Japanese rock and Lolita culture have always fascinated me. Though J-rock is not my preferred choice of music, I still love the bands and singers that major in this particular genre of music. Be it the heavily bleached hair, the coloured contact lens or the complicated dressing styles, I love all these aspects as they make the culture unique and in a class of its own. Mana-sama, being one of the figure heads of this culture, was a name I naturally stumbled across while researching about it.

I have profound respect for this beautiful cross-dresser who revolutionized the J-rock scene. He not only created a whole new type of rock by combining classical music with Heavy Metal, He also created two new lines of Gothic fashion called "Elegant Gothic Lolita" and "Elegant Gothic Aristocrat" which he designs for his brand "Moi-Meme-Moitie". He is an originalist and I love him because of that. That is why many like me have dubbed “Mana” as "Mana-sama" to show our respect for him and his many achievements.

However, he does have quirks which many find weird. For example, He rarely smiles and talks in public claiming that "music is his voice and that it speaks for him." Hence, in all of the interviews, either subtitles would appear or he would just whisper into the ear of a confidante who would then relate it back to the interviewer for him.

But to me, these are the things that make up my impression of Mana-sama who, in my heart, is the only one who can come close to being an idol. Ironically I am not a die hard fan of Mana-sama’s but the main reason as to why he is my idol is because he is not affected by other people’s opinion of him and dares to express his own true self. It is those very quirks which had been deemed strange that made him internationally famous and unique. Through him, I have learnt to be my own true self because not everyone would accept you for who you are. That is why, he is my idol.

Lolita mana (left) Mana in Moi-Dix-Mois (right)

Monochromatic Dream

Nonchalant

the circle of life

Disappointment

misunderstood

Crash and Burn

Friends

FORT STREET

hypocrites

Glass mask

SEBAS-CHAN

new art

holidays

ore sama no resolve

Disappointment

concentration

desire

Good vs Evil

stress~

food for the soul

copy?

insanely weird world

melancholy

Is this really for me?

Short lived happiness

Childhood~

Storys always comes with complications

someone stole my heart~

Hax's BDAY!

BE FREE~

Byousoku 5 centimeters﻿

English Homework (reflection)

Hax-Cel Chan collab XD

English Holiday Homework: Places

English Holiday Homework: My Childhood

English Homework: Idols

Byousoku 5 centimeters